The official name for Human Design Gate 30 is The Gate of Feelings. But I call it The Deep Feeler because its primary action is reveling in the intensity of desire and emotion.
About Human Design Gate 30 – Gene Key 30
Archetype Name: The Deep Feeler
In Action: Reveling in the intensity of desire and emotion
Keywords: feelings, desire, intensity, and emotions
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Official Gate Name: The Clinging Fire – Feelings
Human Design Definition: Freedom recognized as an illusion and limitation accepted as a fate
Core Theme: Fear of the fates.
Bodygraph Center: Emotional Solar Plexus center and connects to the root center via human design gate 41.
Tropical Sign: Aquarius/Pisces
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The Energy Spectrum of Human Design Gate 30
All energy in the Human Design chart exists on a spectrum of potential.
On the “positive” end of the spectrum, Human Design Gate 30 is the energy for reveling in the intensity of desire and emotion. Gate 30 has an innate knowing that a full spectrum of intense feelings are a natural part of the human experience. From this place, it is able to draw in, feel, and process the depths of desire through a lens of human emotion.
On the “negative” end of the spectrum, Human Design Gate 30 is the energy for destructive sensation and/or intensity seeking. Without surrendering to the full spectrum of emotion, Gate 30 can lose it’s faith in life and the connection to desire.
If you don’t like the results that the “negative” side of the spectrum is creating in your life, you can raise the frequency of Gate 30 with a number of boundaries, practices, and tools.
(I cover the practices for the gates of your incarnation cross in the Human Design Map.)
The most important thing to raise the frequency of gate 30 is to trust your inner wisdom by fully exploring your desires and choose which ones to pursue and which ones to let go of.
My personal contemplation of Human Design Gate 30 (Gene Key 30)
At this point, I have surrendered to my love affair with the Human Design gates (and the lines :D).
The gates capture the essence of the archetypal journey of being human and give us such clear and precise language to express our experiences.
By understanding the full spectrum of potential in the gates, they can alchemize judgment into compassion and shame into wholeness. They show us that there isn’t just one side of the story and that how we work with any given energy determines our overall vibration.
When we work skillfully with the energy of any gate in the chart, it vibrates at a higher frequency than when we are completely unconscious of our expression of it.
(I’llI’ll do a deep dive on the full spectrum of potential for all the gates in your incarnation cross in your Human Design Map.)
Gate 30 is the one that demonstrated this in a way that I will never forget.
Gate 30 and my solar plexus are undefined, so part of my higher purpose is gathering wisdom about emotional energy.
And gather wisdom, I have. 😂
Like many others in my generation (and the generations before me), I was terrified of emotions. I was conditioned to believe that my emotions were a problem (even the so-called positive ones) and that I was terrible and wrong for expressing them.
Plus, I was raised in an environment where certain emotions meant literal danger, and I became hypervigilant in being an emotional caretaker to keep myself safe.
To soothe my emotions, I began binge eating at the age of 8, and that turned to exercise bulimia in my early teens. That eventually turned into drugs and alcohol in my early adult years.
During my first Saturn Return, one of my brothers died in a car accident. As profound loss and significant astrological milestones tend to do, this was a major turning point in my life.
Within a few years, I had completely turned my life around. I got into therapy and started to learn about my emotions.
As time progressed, I started to see that all of the emotions moving through me weren’tweren’t my own. Food, exercise, drugs, and alcohol were my ways of dealing with the inability to process it all.
Because that is the thing about other people’speople’s emotions – no matter how open, undefined, or wise we are – we can’t do other people’speople’s emotional work for them.
With that awareness, I started to embody clearer boundaries. I prioritized spending lots of time in my own pure aura and developed discernment about which emotions belonged to me and which ones didn’tdidn’t. I did a metric fuck ton of shadow integration work around the way I found so-called worthiness in being other people’speople’s emotional dumping ground and how hard it often felt to let go of shit that wasn’twasn’t mine.
The more clarity I got and integrated I became, something magickal happened.
I started to notice that when emotions were actually mine to deal with and when I revered them enough to be present with them, they weren’tweren’t so scary. I realized that they hold potent wisdom and that allowing them is how you access that wisdom.
(I’llI’ll teach you how inside the Human Design Map portal.)
And true to the highest frequency of gate 30, I found that I could even experience pleasure in so-called negative emotions.
The real turning point was when I had an orgasm while processing shame.
Yes, you read that correctly. Feeling shame gave me an orgasm.
I told you I had an experience I will never forget. 😉
If you would have told me that was possible two decades ago, there is no world in which I would have believed you. You might not even believe me right now.
But, it is true. And it was a Graceful Awakening like no other.
As they say in the East, a meeting with the Divine and the rivers changes course.
I came to understand (pun kind of intended) that we are incarnate to experience what it means to be human. And deep, dark, intense emotion is part of that experience.
Our soul (aka the magnetic monopole) desires the WHOLE experience, not just the parts that our minds have come to judge as wrong.
It would be dishonest to say that I’m perfect at allowing my emotions. I’m definitely not.
The metaphor of personal growth being like an onion didn’tdidn’t become a cliche for no reason. There are always new layers to explore and more subtle realms to play in.
But I am forever changed and have developed a curiosity about my emotions that just wasn’twasn’t possible before. I’ve given myself deeper permission to allow my feelings to flow, to trust their wisdom, and to stay present even when it becomes very intense.
I now know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that I can not only handle my emotions but also revel in them.
The possibilities are endless, and I can give my soul what it desires more than anything else – depth, richness, and intensity.
This is an amazing part of being fully alive, and I’m here for it. And if you have been resistant to your emotions, I encourage you to open up to the idea that you can revel in them, too.
If you want a guide along the way, invite me here.
Now it’s your turn to contemplate Gate 30
When you stand in the truth that the gifts of Gate 30 are available to you, whether it is defined in your chart or not…
What is your relationship to your emotions?
How connected are you to your desire?
What would you do differently if you knew that your soul incarnated to experience the full emotional spectrum of being human?
I encourage you to take some time with these questions. Take them out into your world and let their answers reveal themselves to you. Intend for deeper levels of clarity about gate 30.
And, if you have gate 30 in your Human Design Incarnation Cross, check out the Human Design Map where I go super deep into each cross gate.