I used to think I had nothing of real value to offer.
That my gifts weren’t the kind of thing people paid for.
That the world only valued me if I was skinny, quiet, or “nice.”
But something changed. And it hasn’t been more evident then what’s been happening since the new Your Gifts + Message by Design course went live inside the map portal. I’ve had some of the most compelling conversations of my career.
There is no amount of worldly possessions that could make me feel more successful than I do in this moment.
I’ve already had conversations with stay at home mothers who struggle to own the value they bring to their household. I’ve had people tell me that I really do bring clarity to this stuff in a way that shifts things. And more people tell me thank you and that they now see why they’ve been so frustrated in their careers.
All of that happened in less than 24 hours. And the amazing convos keep rolling in.
I am deep in appreciation and contemplation of how I got here. And it might surprise you.
There are probably endless stories I could tell about how this spot ended up on my map. And, I could even wax philosophical about how my chart is playing out in all of it.
But, I think for today, I want to get to the heart of the matter. And it’s this:
Owning the value I bring into the world has been the hardest, most persistent internal work I’ve ever had to do.
Truly.
My sense of worthiness was always tied to what other people thought of me. I was told, from a very young age, that the best I could possibly hope for, financially speaking, was a career in administrative work or caretaking and that if I could just find something that made me $60 per year, that I would have made it.
Genuinely, no one ever asked what made me feel successful. No one ever considered that the very things about me that they thought were annoying – my compelling questions, my way of breaking shit down, my way of speaking truth into the world, my instinct and intuition, my deep connection to my source energy – were my greatest gifts. And that if I simply owned then, my life would feel like mine.
That I would become recognized across the globe. That my words alone would change people’s lives. That my gift of insight into the mechanics of the soul would bless so many people.
Until a former mentor of mine said something that changed the way I thought about myself, the value I bring, and the secrets to having a financially rewarding career.
She said:
Making money means creating value for others. And you create value with your mind.
Now, for sure, I wouldn’t say it exactly that way. And I have no idea if she would agree how I’ve integrated it. But none of that really matters.
What matters is that it sparked a level of inner contemplation that changed everything.
Because when she first said it, my immediate thought was that I had nothing of value to offer. And I had no clue what she meant that we create value with our mind. Like, for real. I was still unconsciously believing that my value was rooted in my looks, my weight, and whether or not other people thought I was nice.
But, I knew for sure that the way her words stirred me was important.
So, I sat with it. For literal years.
I questioned why I had helped so many people and yet my bottom line was in the red.
I was angry that it wasn’t that simple.
I wallowed in how the cards were always stacked against me.
Ultimately, just like I teach my clients, I was in the heat of the fires of alchemy. I was seeing, very clearly, all the shit that was standing in my way and needed to be burned to the ground.
I went deep into the weeds of “healing” my money story.
And while I’m grateful for so much of the work I’ve done there, what I’ve come to understand is that, for me, money, my relationship to both earning and spending, was always just a symbol of two things:
What I value. And the value I bring.
I had to start unpacking the stories around my authenticity, what felt right in my heart, and what felt easy and natural. And whether or not those things had real world value.
I had to stop connecting my self worth to my bank account. I had to stop acting unworthy every time my thoughts screamed of my unworthiness. I had to stop acting like I shouldn’t get paid for my authentic contribution.
And I had to get real about my actual gifts. By real, I mean, truly do the work of understanding the cash-money value of what I bring to the table.
For example, I added up the value of all of the Human Design books, courses, and trainings I’ve studied from. And then added in the multiple trainings in coaching and energy healing. And the endless study of alchemy, magick, correspondence, spiritual traditions, and philosophy. The endless hours of study, contemplation, and writing.
Did you know that if I put all of my human design written materials into a book, it would literally be thousands upon thousands of pages? And that isn’t even including the stuff with energy work side of things. That is just what I’ve written about the system itself.
And I had to own it. Like deep in my bones. Own it.
Along the way, I came to see that saying we create value with our mind is actually quite limiting.
We create value with our energy. And when we leverage the energy that is naturally abundant within us, the value pours out of you. Like, POURS OUT OF YOU.
For example, did you know that I recently launched a map + portal upgrade called the gates codex. It is an exclusive offer I only make once you’ve ordered your map. But, it has 66 modules, 8 lessons each, and I created it in a matter of days. That is the kind of shit that is truly unbelievable. The people around me couldn’t even believe that creating that much value in such a short amount of time was even possible.
But it was. Because I’ve really started to embody the essence of what my mentor said that day.
I used Human Design to help me understand it. The chart gives us a shortcut to figuring all that out on our own. And I don’t know how long it would have taken me had I not had Human Design.
To be clear, I don’t think you “have to” have human design knowledge to unpack the real world value of your gifts, talents, and skills. But, for fucks sake, it sure does save a lot of heartache.
So, over this last day, as the conversations have poured in, leaving me in tears about what I get to help people do in this new course, Your Gifts + Message by Design, I am just in awe.
Like, for real, how did I go from being a neurodivergent AF, broke ass drug addict to a woo-woo witchy type on the internet helping people, all across the globe, own the value of their most authentic contribution?
Some might say it was written in the stars.
But I’d say the stars handed me a map…
…a way to understand the energy I’m here to wield with mastery, creating real value in the most authentic way possible.
So, if you’ve wondered whether Human Design can help you unpack the real-world value of your natural gifts, your most authentic contribution, your innate magnetism—the answer is a wholehearted yes.
And I’ve broken it all down for you in my new course, Your Gifts + Message by Design. It’s a mix of chart decoding and real-world application—like doing all the fun interpretive stuff AND actually putting dollar amounts on what you bring to the table.
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Here’s to owning the true value of your contribution—without the bullshit stories about self-worth.
See you inside.