Honestly, I wasn’t sure if I would just be spending my money on one more solution that would end in disappointment and more self-hatred because I was going to fail at one more thing. The end result of these solutions was that I couldn’t change because of this self-hatred that was always there.
I am now shifting this pattern of low self-esteem and self-hatred. I actually genuinely like and love myself. My inner voice has changed from one of being mean to myself to a voice of being kind, loving, and understanding. I can actually identify thoughts that I used to believe without question as really not true. I now believe that I deserve love and kindness. I am seeing the possibility of loving myself right now, exactly as I am..