One of the coolest parts of doing my work is that I get to serve as an Oracle for my students and clients. I receive messages that helps my clients move forward with their intentions with clarity and grace.
Sometimes, the messages are symbolic and have plenty of room for interpretation and other times, they get right to the point. Either way, they open a doorway into deep, rich, and healing conversations that benefit the both of us.
At this point, I have relayed hundreds of messages but none of them have impacted me the way this one did:
Confidence does not come from knowing the outcome. Confidence comes from knowing that you will have your own back either way.
This message was “for” my client, but the Truth is, it was also for me.
At the time, I was in the process of reclaiming my confidence. I had always been a confident person but, as a child, it wasn’t received very well. People didn’t seem to like that about me and, like all human beings, I wanted to be liked.
So, in my attempts to belong, I rejected the confidence and turned it into something shameful. I learned to hide it at all costs and got really good at pretending that I wasn’t confident at all.
This message about confidence helped me to release that shame and start to really understand confidence. I was able to integrate it in a whole new way.
Those stories of too much, cockiness, and conceit weren’t mine. I could let them go.
Because I do have my own back, either way. Even in the face of shame. Even when shit gets hard. Even when nothing goes as planned.
Yes, my friend doubt might show up. Maybe even hopeless or despair.
But, in the end, I know that I will come through for myself. I will choose forgiveness and compassion.
I can trust that the absolute worst thing that can happen is an emotion and I am fully capable of doing emotions. I can feel shame without wallowing in it. I can experience fear and move forward anyway. I can go into the depths of my emotions without getting swallowed up by them.
And even if they do swallow me up, I will choose compassion. I will be there for the little girl inside that hurts.
Because confidence isn’t about feeling good all the time. It’s about being present with yourself, and for your life, even when you feel like shit.
And you my friend, can totally do that.